oh canada

so i just got back from calabogie peaks, snowboarding! it was feckin crazy. it said it would take 3 hrs to get there. definitely took longer than that. crazy kilometers. crazy canadians. did you know that the drinking age in ontario is 19, not 18? yeah, apparently that's just quebec. which actually i already knew, but was convinced otherwise, which always seems to happen! like when we drove home, in the pitch black canadian wilderness.. and got lost for like 2 hours. scary, scary times! but i must say, calabogie was pretty fun for the first snow of the season. they only had one lift open, and a couple slopes, and i managed to even face-plant once. yeah, when they have the little stick cross-y things, even tho they are fun, do not go on the little bumpy things! there's a warning for a reason! anyways. it's always kinda funny how things work out.. actually, i don't know whether it's funny or just horrible and morbid, or some sick twist of fate, or it's a little bit of both, but some bad stuff has just happened.

i'm so incredibly tired right now, i feel drunk. and it feels like everything that just happened was a dream. mother just bitched me out about not responding to her emails quickly enough. then my mom is going to the philippines tomorrow. i go to get food. then my grandma is in a coma. never woulda thought i'd be miles away trying to calm my mom's tears, talking to her on a cell phone in a hallway where girls are screaming, "do my thighs look fat??"

now i'm left with the sudden sombering realization that i'm spending christmas alone this year. such highs and lows. one day. i'm goin to bed.